Try as I may

Try as I may, I haven't been able to draw worth crap this weekend. Maybe that means I'm not motivated. Maybe I just can't get loosened because of recent stresses still hanging over my head. If I thought I was feeling bad before, I don't know if I feel any better after my Oz marathon. I might even feel worse. Since I couldn't draw I finished watching all those downloaded Oz episodes I had. Since I didn't have cable for most of the second half of the series, I missed alot. Good stuff.

I thought I felt a tad bit of catharsis after watching Oz, but what I felt after I woke up that evening was sort of a void. I had been feverishly watching Oz for some weeks now. I know at some point last night I had that kind of feeling that Oz's ending would be grand. That all the answers to life would be contained right there in the extended length final episode. I was good, but no keys to life. I hadn't even noticed all along that the series was slowly ending the last two seasons. Winding down and wrapping everthing up in a package. Not everything was all so neat, but it was as good as I could expect. No disappointments.

I know I'm bored, but what really bad is when you know you're bored, but you can't do anything about it. Well, I'm gonna try my best to warm up and get something done or else I'll probably end up in worse shape than I was before. It's odd that things like cartoony looking cartoons should be easy, but they really aren't. They require a humorous frame of mind which I really don't have right now.

As much as I would love to just say that regularity is the key to ridding all my artistic problems, it seems like my emotional state is alot more important part than I would've thought. Who'da thunk it huh?